The topic this month really has me racking my brain. It keeps sounding like a contradiction to me. Surely as a human being we all have the right to be loved? So why does one need to love yourself to find love?
For me, it feels better and sits better if we rather say – Love yourself to find the love you deserve. See, anybody can love you. However, if you do not love yourself, you would gladly accept mediocre love. Poisonous love. Toxic love. You don’t see yourself worth much more, and its still love, right?
Wrong! Throughout my life I have experienced a lot of toxic love. Thinking it was pure and believing it to be good for me. The people closest to me all told me that I was making a mistake. That this love was not pure, that this love was unhealthy. I did not listen, always preferring to hit my head numerous times before ever learning my lesson. When eventually my blinkers fell away and I saw what I had allowed close to me, I could leave it behind. I could set a new goalpost and move forward.
As I have learned to love myself more and more through my journey, my teachers, my guides, I have got closer and closer to finding the love I deserve with each failed friendship and each failed romance. If I spend the rest of my time searching, and perfecting, that will also be okay. But in the meantime, I am loving myself, and I am finding the love I deserve.
Be kind to yourself